when you expout the virtues of taking reckless shots and belittle keeping records or even knowing what your approximate edge is over a per time basis I won't let such horribly flawed logic stand unchallenged. How exactly is such behavior different than the old lady pulling the lever at the progressive jackpot slot machine? She could win big too. Could even take a big shot at the "high stakes" slot machine. Heck, if the jackpot is big enough it might even be +EV...

As I recall your bid to play full time fell flat on its face
If my monthly burn rate was lower, I'd be living it up. I considereded a lot of options, including moving to a lower cost part of the country/world. One of the best possible jobs landed in my lap and pretty much settled the issue. The day I showed up they appologised for not giving me a window office....