Dont really know if this is a rant, confession, or question....LOL
I have been playing poker on and off for about 5 years. The reason for the "on and off" is what i'm trying to figure out. I LOVE the game. Now in my mid 40's it's about the only thing besides golf that i still get some form of competiton to satisfy my competitive spirit.

I really don't want to this to be a long post so i try to summarize. I think i have traveled the newbie circle of death 4 or 5 times. I make a deposit, and proceed to double or sometimes tripled it. EVERYTIME this has happend it has been within the first month of the deposit. For the second month i rock along about even and then in the third month it seems that every hand takes a bad beat. I've tracked it and on the hands that i was eliminiated, i was ahead roughly 62% when the money went in. So i suffer along and after another month or so i loose the entire bank roll. I cool off and wait 3-6 months before redeposting and then i follow the same circle.

I have read HOH and a couple of others, and have read almost every article on this great site. It's just nuts that i can be a winning player for a while and then lose when i seem to be playing the same way. I generally play low stakes 18 or 90 person sng's. I sometimes throw in a larger MTT but always within bankroll guidelines.

So i guess my question is, what am i missing? What have i yet to do to put me over the hump so i don't have to take these cooling periods. I just want to be a steady winning player that can maintain a bankroll so support my love for the game......
THANKS guys for your comments!!