I don't see why people would eat you alive for admitting your leaks. You know you lack patience and you are too ego attached to the outcome. Neither trait is etched in stone for all eternity. You've just got some things to work on. Just because you're not a pro, doesn't mean you can't focus on improving by shoring up your game. That's what we're all here to do. I've got more than my share of leaks that I'm working on too.

Take some time off and come back ready to learn and improve.