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Outside of poker things were going pretty well. I was traveling a ton, meeting plenty of girls around school, going out and partying all the time, just having a blast in general. Even though things seemed to be going really well, I just wasnt content. I felt like I was really being held back from success by the people around. Not specifically my friends, but by the typical college student.
On a college campus, the "driven" students are typically the ones that are in every club, spend all their little free time in the library, etc. They do this so that they are guaranteed a great job once they graduate [or finish med school, law school, whatever]. Thats great and all, but I dont really feel like they are truly pushing themselves. They are taking the easiest path to "success," but that success isnt really huge and it definitely doesnt provide the freedom that I want. I dont want to ever work for somebody else. I want to be able to set my own hours and just generally do what I want to do when I want to do it and I just didnt think I was going to get there by staying in school.
At that point I was grinding probably 15-20 hours a week. Working out 5 days a week, but I was drinking _at least_ 5 days a week and going out to eat almost everyday, so while there were some gains in strength, all working out was doing was making it so I could roughly maintain my weight without changing my diet too much. I also took a month and a half off from school because I just didnt really feel like going. It started when I went to a few football games with ISF, Massimo, Will, and some of their friends, and then continued when I went on a cruise with Alexos, Genitruc and Ravageur. When I got back I had missed like 3 weeks having some of the best times ever and just said fuck it, Im only in 9 credits, lets just take some more time off.
I just wasnt getting anywhere. I was feeling guilty for missing school, but realized that it just wasnt important to me and the environment was making it hard for me to reach my goals. So I took an absence of leave and came to Thailand where we started off in the OP.
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