Edit (March 12th, '08) : New title but same thread. Gonna focus more on posting interesting hands than chronicling my results (end edit).

I don't have enough. I need more...

hands played.

I'm gonna try to log 30k hands between now and Christmas break (around Dec 17th)

Considering I'm a big fan of taking days off, this means I'll need to avg just above 1k hands per day played.

For most of you grinders, this seems like nothing but it's a shitload of poker for me. Last time I tried to play"regularly" I got sick of it after 4 days and have been on a 3 week "break" ever since.

I guess I never really got used to grinding. The closest I came was when I was learning cash games playing B2 B bonus-whoring. That's also where I developed my hyper-aggro style to counteract the nits on B 2 B.

I just find cashgames so fking stressful. Busting out of a tourney on a big bluff or getting sucked out on on the bubble doesn't faze me at all. But making a big calldown and being wrong or throwing away a big pot just wears on me in cash games. It's also emotionally tough becase the money is a lot in my world (doctorate student in classical piano LOL JOBOFFERAMENTS).

I got to nl400 about 30k hands into my cash game career, taking my roll from 2k in May to 21k at the end of September running at a ridiculous 12ptbb between nl50 and nl200... It was only then that I moved to nl400 with over 50 buy-ins. I suddenly became somewhat gun-shy and after a couple thousand hands of break-even poker felt more afraid of losing that eager to play...

Hopefully, posting this will serve as an incentive to play. I'm an exhibitionist, so I hope to post lots of pwnage and (not so much) spewage in this thread soon.

My idea is that after every session I'll post :

-biggest bluff
-biggest spew
-biggest call-down
-hand I think I played the best (either lost least/won the most)

I'll also figure out exactly what my BR - after withdrawing a few k for school and stuff - is before starting and give daily BR updates. I don't care if I make money but I'd really like to hit the 30k hand target.

Hopefully I'll start 2morrow after I sort out this b.s. with the prima site I played at getting bought out by Bodog...