Just played for about 2.5 hrs and had to stop due to tilt

I should've prob made about 3k and instead was down about 500$. The very last hand was gross and just made me shut down my laptop.

I'm right on the verge of breaking through with so many things. The biggest one is managing when I play, how much I play and my emotional state. I feel like that's gotten soooo much better but the past 2 days have really challenged that assumption.

Today at the end I felt so much pent up rage that it scared me. I am nowhere near the emotional jedi that I need to be. I worry that had I played longer I would've started doing shit like open-shoving and 3-bet flop-shove bluffing to any raise.

Meh.