Right now I'm kind of disappointed with myself. I just really, really don't feel like playing. I guess this comes down to a lack of discipline... The very idea of firing up some tables seems like pulling teeth.

There's always the thinking that if you take a break, you'll feel fresher and more focused when you come back but I really don't think it has much to do with that. I think it'll be just as hard later today, tomorrow, a week from now...

So what do I do? There are so many people who would love to be in my shoes, grinding good midstakes games for a nice winrate. This isn't much consolation. I think I just need to do some soul searching. Or maybe just sit my ass down and grind this shit.