At what point do i cash out. What is my goal and my limit. what stakes should i stay in while running good. These are some questions that are very important to me when making a deposit for the first time and trying to build a bankroll.
But everytime i start to run good all that goes straight out the window. The sky's the limit my blood is pumping heart pounding and all i can think of is how I own this table.
I went to this site's [FPR] chatroom about an hour b4 the last pokerstars freeroll and to my suprise the room was packed. I talked to one guy about my problem and he told me something I've heard only once but by a close family member of mine who ironically doesn't even play poker.
So I figured the guys advice was worth consideration at the least. He told me I wasn't a poker player, poker players don't gamble. I'm addicted to gambling. Now there is some truth to that and I'll explain but how he came to the conclusion made me think alittle.
The day after I talked to him I hit the table to see just exactly what about poker I love so much{the gambling or the poker } So I put ten dollars into a ultimate bet account and started off 50 1.00 limit. played for about 3 hours got up to around 30 dollars. Figured I was running good. So I started another table same limit this time 6 max.I got up to about 72 dollars I remember looking at my bankroll which was 37. and what I had on the 2 tables was 37. . Ok so I can cash out right now and still have had trippled my money but off course I start watching 1 2 limit and b4 i know it im at the table with 20. First or second hand I'm in the big blind with 4 9 off. 2 limps to me and i check. flop comes 3 4 4 . Mind you I've been playing 50 1.00 limit for hours, check raising almost every hand becuase I was running good and hitting almost everyy flop. Nobody believed me. So when i hit trips on flop I just call a bet no raise hoping to check raise the turn. Not even paying attention to the board or considering his cards. Raise again on turn i reraise he reraises etc.... I know I'm good . Well fuck me if there isn't a flush out there and I don't see it until the hands over . Another -20 dollars after that , at the same table and I decide to leave. Still have about 35 bucks but instead of calling it a night. NL time I'm thinking I lost my money I'll just double up and be back at 70. hour later after AK push of 25 dollars against 3's and AJ push vs. AA my bankrolls gone. I came to this conclusion. I need to stop playing for money until I can control my decisons at the table and understand bankroll management. I still consider myself a poker player not a gambler just a really bad one.
I might be wrong about this thats why I'm writing this blog. I know I donked off 70 dollars in less than an hour but I played super good for 3 hours straight. I have no discipline at the table does that make me a gambler? If so what should i do to make the leap to poker player.Or do you just have it or not? thanks for reading this long ass blog.gl 2 U