So i've been meaning to start an operation for a few weeks now. After starting the year off well up like $5k, i've done what i do every year after a decent start, and after yesterday i'm officially losing money this year. I'm probably down like $2k or so at poker and just barely down in BR after rakeback. My confidence has been pretty high the last few weeks playing even after a miserable april and a spewy may, but after dropping 10 buyins yesterday i'm just depressed. Not in a real life way, but in a poker mindset way. I dont really let poker affect my life negatively (after that first hour or so after a bad session), but my confidence is shot and i want to get my game back together.

I've played like 100k+ hands this year at 1/2nl on FTP, and although i have stretches where i play really well i always end up choking and either straight spewing or slowly leaking all my winnings away. I've been getting some coaching from Renton of the past few weeks and after only 2 sweat sessions, i feel like i'm thinking about the game better. He nailed one of my big problems (among many others) our first session. I have some sort of crazy passive tilt i go on where i start calling too many 3bets and bluffing way way way too much. While yesterday wasn't all that, it def. contributed to my worst day ever. I'm going to continue with Renton as long as he will take me on as a student, so hopefully this is the bottom and i can only go up.

I don't really know where im going with this, just venting i guess. I have had an operation or 2 in the past, and they have helped my keep some accountability, so i'm hoping this one will do the same. I plan on posting a hand or 2 every time I play, and every time i make a dumbass play I will post it to hopefully discourage myself from doing it again in the future. I dont really play on making this soley a BR building op, but that will obv be part of it. I started the year with an $8200 BR, its been as high as $13k, and is now at low point of $7800. I moved up to nl200 with a $5k BR, but if i drop below $7k i'm going to move back down to nl100. I've never been a BR nit before, but damn i feel like one all of the sudden.

Anyway, hopefully i can get a few people to stop in here every once in a while and help me figure this shit out. I know i have what it takes to win at this game, and i have no one to blame but myself.

bode