Just thinking about direction of my life, what I want, etc. just makes my head spin because it hits topics that I hadn't given too much thought. I just want to get away and lie down because there are so many unknowns. But as I keep going I think a lot of those things that were previously unknowns are becoming revealed. For example, how am I going to afford buying a car/paying for insurance/gas/etc.
I am already paying for a lot of things like food, internet, computer upgrades/accessories so actually I am no longer doubting my ability to pay a small bill every month with poker

but for other things I want from life, there is still that uncertainty because I don't know how to get them, even if I do have money

Jared Tendler says I should invest time into building my poker skill so I'll do just that
I will play sum regs on stars and expect to break even but hopefully build my skill level