Thanks for the words of encouragement guys. Will have to work hard to get there. -_-

Ahh January was a month of "soul searching" you could say. Not just in poker but since this is a poker blog lol, I will only mention the poker related stuffs. Let's start of with some good news! I bought a car!! Woot woot. No more having to take bus/train to where I wanna go, no more having to ask parents to take their car, no more relying on others for a ride! Very excited. Now how does this relate to poker? Simple. This car was paid for 100% by ::drum rolls::: online poker! Yep. When I say 100%, I am counting in DMV fees, insurance, mechanic, and any other costs that came with it. I really needed my own car so I had to make a sacrifice and cut into my roll and drop down. Here is a pic:





Now on to the bad stuff. This month was absolutely horrible for me. I was running like shit which led me to play even shittier. After that I tried out different things. I tried mass tabling 24 tables. 24 tabling is easy, its playing good while at it is the hard part. I can 24 table (thanks to years of RTS gaming experience) good with not missing or wasiting too much time. The fact that I don't have much FR experience or the correct strategy to follow when I am playing so many tables (ex. nittier, folding more marginal spots, etc.) led to that being a failure. I tried heads up which I didn't like too much. The biggest disappointment of all was how I played the game this month. It was pretty much autopilot entire month without thinking too much about my game. I need to study more and be fully focused while playing. I am taking measures to have better self discipline, not only in poker but every aspect of life, which will hopefully make me a better player. Here is my graph and summary for the month:



The number of hands I did was ridiculous. 30k hands and a lot of it came from mass tabling which means I didn't put in much time at the table this month. Considering I had off from college this month, it's horrible. Also, the -3k came at the worse possible time, right when I had to withdraw so much of my roll to buy a car. This brought me down to .25/.50 now and have to grind my way back up.

This was my first losing month and boy did it hurt. The lesson I want to take away from this month is self discipline. Within that are more specific areas I am going to work on. The major ones are studying the game more, stop playing when I realize I am playing on auto pilot, and stop immediately when I realize I am tilting. If those things were in check, January would've been a different month for me.