WTF.
I'm in the same boat, grinding micros while slowly improving my game, so I'm probably not the best person to give you advice.

That's the kind of hand I immediately and completely removed from my game.
I'm not even defending the blind there.

But you already realized it was a total brain fart.


Just take a break imo, if you find yourself pulling off that kind of shit.
You knew you were doing something retarded right from the preflop, but you didn't stop.
I'd just take a break and come back when my brain is working again.