Quick update before this topic falls off the end of the page.

So I took a nice break, read and studied some and came back feeling a lot better. More than anything I realized how much I fucking tilt.

1. Like, at first I was all like, "I don't tilt, yo, I has teh self controlz."
2. Then I was like, "Hmm, maybe I tilt but I don't realize it. But nps, now that I realized it, it'll never happen again. I has teh self controlz, rait?"
3. After that it was like, "Hey I'm tilting right now, stop it and kill everyone on the table through your superior playing skills."
4. But then I was like, "Omg, I actually tilt like a 14 year old cheerleader losing her pom-poms every fucking time AK misses and my c-bet get check-bombed on the flop. It's like I try to make that money back in another hand and play far too aggressively, which of course results in more loss and more tilt. There must be a way to control this instant-tilt after every small loss!"
5. Then I realized tilt comes in very disguised forms, very subtle and very lethal to the game. I realized I have next to none self control and that the best thing to do is gtfo the tables immediately. Poker will always be there, there's no rush to make 25NL by the end of X period, there's no rush to anything. It will only take longer if I am not playing my A game and lose as a result.

Anyways, after a nice little heater after my break I ended the month slightly positive (about 5 buy-ins).

BR: ~450