Cooled down a little, but I do think its worth considering.

I've slipped back into a bad habit. Playing because I've found a time I can, instead of when I feel good. Was tired last night but figured I'd play a bit while wife settled our son. -3 buyins. Had to get up to him a couple times during the night, but this morning he actually went back down to sleep in his cot (normally mornings my wife works we end up napping on the couch together) so fired it up again. -4 buyins.

Its like, on one hand I know some/most of my problems, so logically I should be able to fix them.

On the other hand, I just keep falling into the same traps again and again. So am I just beating my head against the wall.


It could be worse. Hate to point out Jyms, but I'm break even for the month, and break even for the year atm. At least these shitty runs of mine have been losing profits rather than just plain losing.

I only deposited about $200 total, and about $300 in software/vid site subs/etc. I've withdrawn $1k already so I'm up $500 on money in/out of my RL monies, and I still have about $1.6k in my roll. Ask an uninterested party and he'd tell you I'm obviously a winning player. I just dont feel like it now.


I think I need to compromise. Set myself some targets and work to them, and if I cant get there, then accept it and move on with my life. Heres what I'm thinking:

If I have another losing month in April, I'm done.
If I'm not a winning 100nl player by end of July I'm done.
If I'm not a winning 200nl player by the end of the year I'm done.

This is taking too much time away from other parts of my life if I'm not going to be a winner at it and get something out of it. By the same token, if I do want to get stuff out of it, I need to stop bumming along and really focus on improving and playing right.