Yeah, working out where they're coming from really helps. Fnords perfect at it, leaves just enough clues for you to work it out if you think about it.


Anyway, all that aside, something occurred to me today. Last month I reached my goal in poker. I just forgot about it, because it was an old goal. Probably not even a goal since I was always kinda fuzzy about it, but a target. Basically, back around the time I started writing this Op, I had a rough goal of earning about $1k per month at poker. Last month I did that for the first time.

I'm not sure if I've ever really nailed down my hopes/plans for poker in here. I wanted to earn a set base, starting amount (which was and still is $5k) and from there I start spending money. Basically if I want to buy something, I earn twice that in poker then withdraw half of it. So if I get to $5k and want to buy $1k worth of something, I get my roll to $7k and withdraw $1k. That would leave me with $6k to start again with, so my roll would gradually keep growing. At the time I was thinking of buying stuff around the $500-$1k mark, so if I earnt $1k per month I could make withdraws every 1-2 months for my spendings. Spendings basically being toys I would feel a little guilty about buying from my day job given we have a mortgage we're paying off/etc.

Over time though, the list of things I want to buy eventually have grown, and started to include more expensive items, so my goals have changed. Likewise where I think I can get to has changed. $1k per month is a fairly easy target at 100nl (if you're a winning player there), but I'm hoping to become a winning 200, and even 400nl player. If I do, that should mean I look at earning more like 2-4k per month at poker.

I dunno, long way off and I'm really trying not to focus on that side of things just now. Atm I just want to win. The focus on money and items was a big part of my emotional problems a little while back. Just found it interesting today when I realised I actually had one of my goal months and barely acknowledged it, since my goals have grown in the meantime.