such a sick fucking week....have managed to drop 6.5 BI's in the last 4 days and I'm not sure how to stop the bleeding.

Tonight I played well, AA and KK got paid off pretty well and had about 150 hands left in my session so was feeling good and then in about 20 minutes it was all done for and I was $122 down for the night...had a major suck out on me to put me $30 down and then just donked off two buy-ins with bad play on good hands as you'll see.

I have no idea if people are actually even reading this or if I'm wasting my time posting hands and ideas in here for comment but guess I'll keep doing it for now.

Hand 1: Opponent is 12.8/2.8 over about 300 hands, have posted this in HH forum to see because I'm still not sure about my river play. The flop bet I'm iffy on because if I don't bet here it lets him take the initiative on the turn and most likely push me off my hand

Full Tilt No-Limit Hold'em, $0.50 BB (9 handed) Hand History Converter Tool from FlopTurnRiver.com (Format: FlopTurnRiver)

saw flop|saw showdown

MP2 ($10)
Hero ($96.05)
CO ($37.20)
Button ($67.65)
SB ($44.65)
BB ($10)
UTG ($96.80)
UTG+1 ($93.30)
MP1 ($50)

Preflop: Hero is MP3 with A, A. UTG posts a blind of $0.50.
2 folds, Hero raises to $2, 2 folds, SB calls $1.75, UTG (poster) raises to $6, Hero raises to $16, 1 fold, UTG calls $8.50.

Flop: ($32.50) A, Q, 8 (4 players)
UTG checks, Hero bets $21, UTG calls $21.

Turn: ($74.50) 6 (4 players)
UTG checks, Hero checks.

River: ($74.50) 7 (4 players)
UTG bets $24, Hero calls $24.

Final Pot: $122.50

Results in white below:
BB doesn't show.
UTG has Kh Kd (flush, ace high).
MP2 doesn't show.
Hero has Ad As (three of a kind, aces).
Outcome: UTG wins $122.50.

Hand 2: Villain is 18/8 over about 200 hands....no idea what I thought I could push him off, I put this one down to tilt as it was about 4 hands after Hand 1 but on a different table

Full Tilt No-Limit Hold'em, $0.50 BB (9 handed) Hand History Converter Tool from FlopTurnRiver.com (Format: FlopTurnRiver)

saw flop|saw showdown

UTG+1 ($31.20)
MP1 ($52.75)
MP2 ($20)
MP3 ($9.25)
Hero ($78.25)
Button ($41.30)
SB ($19.50)
BB ($51.65)
UTG ($49.25)

Preflop: Hero is CO with A, K.
UTG raises to $2.5, 4 folds, Hero calls $2.50, 2 folds, BB calls $2.

Flop: ($7.75) 2, K, 2 (3 players)
BB checks, UTG bets $5, Hero raises to $13.5, BB folds, UTG raises to $35, Hero raises to $79.5, UTG calls $16.75 (All-In).

Turn: ($111.25) T (2 players, 1 all-in)

River: ($111.25) 4 (2 players, 1 all-in)

Final Pot: $98.75

Results in white below:
UTG has Ah Ad (two pair, aces and twos).
Hero has As Kd (two pair, kings and twos).
Outcome: UTG wins $98.75.

Hand 3: Villain was a short-stack ratholing fuck running 11.5/3 over about 300 hands.....again, if I put him on AA or QQ then I was not pushing him off this hand and should have let it go when he called my flop raise.

Full Tilt No-Limit Hold'em, $0.50 BB (9 handed) Hand History Converter Tool from FlopTurnRiver.com (Format: FlopTurnRiver)

saw flop|saw showdown

MP1 ($22.70)
MP2 ($34.80)
MP3 ($17.45)
CO ($57.90)
Button ($49.25)
SB ($58.05)
Hero ($49.70)
UTG ($64.25)
UTG+1 ($9.25)

Preflop: Hero is BB with K, K.
2 folds, MP1 calls $0.50, MP2 raises to $1.5, 4 folds, Hero calls $1, MP1 calls $1.

Flop: ($4.75) 8, Q, T (3 players)
Hero checks, MP1 checks, MP2 bets $3, Hero raises to $8.5, MP1 folds, MP2 calls $5.50.

Turn: ($21.75) Q (2 players)
Hero bets $26, MP2 calls $24.80 (All-In).

River: ($71.35) 9 (2 players, 1 all-in)

Final Pot: $68.35

Results in white below:
Hero has Kd Kc (two pair, kings and queens).
MP2 has Ts Tc (full house, tens full of queens).
Outcome: Hero wins $68.35.

Take those hands out and I end up again...hell, even take hands 2 and 3 out and leave hand 1 in, cause I can't see how I get away from it really, and I'm about even for the night or a little down from donking off to the shortstacks, stolen blinds and preflop bets that don't go anywhere.

Not sure what to do, I don't want to get into the habit of getting up after an hour or so and then leaving as opposed to putting in my hours each day but it seems that at the moment that would be the only way I can win....play a bit, get up $30-40, take an hour or two break and do it again. Problem is I hate those short-stack ratholing fucks that play a similar strategy and don't want to fall into that style so I don't know.....I really just don't know.

I'm still up $650 at FullTilt but now $440 of that is bonus so over the last 2 months I have made $232 @ 1.01ptBB/100 over 25k hands which is just abysmal honestly (at least I'm up in every position including blinds once the diff is accounted for) and my br is around $2600 once more which isn't enough for me to take a shot at $100NL (and doubt I would anyway with such a crappy winrate at $50NL)...have about $100 or so in rb coming to me this month which can help a bit but I want to get my winrate up to the 2.5/100 before I start to look at moving up but it seems I'm destined to keep donking cash off after making a small amount of forward progress and end back up in this mindset time and again.

Maybe I need to take a few days off, or move to one of the softer sites to whore some bonuses since I'm not restricted to where I can play...just anything to pad my br out a bit more so I can at least start looking at moving up....or maybe I need to move to 6 max where I can feel less stressed opening my game up and being more aggressive (one of my main problems in FR is I am playing too tight still, which is great when I get respect for my raises with trash, and can't find a way to open it up since a lot of hands where I'm in late position and thinking about raising things like KJo get raised before me and so I have to toss it)...or perhaps move to limit where I can be more methodical and limit my losses each hand as opposed to being able to blow my entire sessions work in 2 hands as I can in NL.

As I said earlier, when it comes to just about all things poker and how they relate to me....I just don't know