fired up 6 tables, 3 nl + 3 plo since i saw a couple whale sitting

i haven t done this in a while but i m so tilted and frustrated and angry and scared right now that wtv, i ll just post describe the hands that led me to shut things down right away.

1st hand i raise 58hh from CO, sb flats

flop 557, he donks i call

turn J he leads for pot i call

river 2 he bets 3/4 i shove he snaps with 2's full

next big hand i call a rr 180bb's deep at plo w QQ34dbl suited in pos

flop 36T w 2 back door flushdraws, i call 3/4 pot c bet

turn 7 he bets 2/3 pot I jam he snaps with AA89 and i m drawing dead

next big hand i raise the btn with KT34dbl suited, get flatted by a huge whale in the BB

flop T56 giving me the weak openender and flushdraw w top pair, i pot he calls

turn is offsuit K giving me top 2, FD and o ender, he checks i pot he jams, he flips KKK and I lose. solid one-outer to stack me.

215 hands, down 450. my total online br - after paying back some debts and withdrawing living expenses for next month - is 5.5k

i know variance is meaningless, it s all one big session, blahblah

but it just hurts too much right now so i m shutting things down because i m so angry that i can t see straight.