Up for the month right now which feels good but I can't seem to be happy.

I'm troubled by a few things that have happened in the past involving a few FTRers that I let down. I hate letting people down especially when they were being very generous. I barely (if at all) talk to them anymore too . Yeah this is an emo post but it's on my mind and I wish I could fix it. Don't want to get into details right now.