Soo things are goin' bad.. reallll bad. This is the first time in a long time I've been legitimately frustrated in a while, and it's not only cause I'm downswinging. But usually when I downswing, it's cause I feel like I'm playing bad, or like an idiot, and at least during those times I feel like that's in my control.

But the last 3 weeks have been brutal. Around 37 buyin downswing, and a lot of it I've felt has been completely out of my control. The statement is true "you will run worse than you've ever thought possible".. and I'm in that mode right now. Not only through EV, but also just losing with cooler hands that I know I need to be stacking off with, or having horrible turn/river cards come that kill my action etc. Pretty much all forms of running bad resulting in this lovely graph below.




The result of me running bad has been the destruction of my stars roll from $36k to around $9k right now... going from 5/10 to 2/4 in the matter of 17k hands.

I'd rather not re-deposit out of money I've already withdrawn, so I guess I'll just go into rebuild mode.

Made a propbet with alex that I could run 5ptbb at 2/4 over the next 20k hands, so I'm starting that now. This is my first downswing >$20k where I've legitimately felt I've been playing ok for the most part, and am mostly at the hands of lady variance. Hopefully she turns soon!