Okay, this is going to be a long detailed post-mortem post. There will be no cliff notes, sorry.

It might seem like this thread is just a pointless "Oh no, I suck" thread.
But really it was an attempt to try something I thought I was good at $50NL. But despite a lot of work it seems that results seem to be more down to lucky profits than my edge and sucky mistakes.

Constantly losing is depressing and I was hoping to pick up enough affirmation this month to keep me going. But right now I'm 3 BI down over the month and if I can't beat THESE games what does that say?

I'm going to go through table by table here and see how it went, maybe some problems will arise. 26 sessions for almost 1k hands.

First stop, Party (8-tabling).
session 1: Down $22. Three pots I lost, two raised pots, missed flop, they played back at my c-bet. Two barrels on another hand and again didn't hit.
No real drama.

Session 2: Up $17. Nothing to note.
Session 3: Down $12. One PP forced to fold on K-river to donk bet.
Session 4: Down $5
Session 5: Up $7
Session 6: Down $25. A few PPs had to lay down to aggression on dangerous flops.
Session 7: Up $8
Session 8: Down $44
Lost a $20 2-barrelling a low board before getting playd back at.
Won a $17 with TPTK.

First big hand:
Raise JTs on the button, two callers. Flop 968, two clubs for FD+OESD.
I bet low $3.50 into $10 and get called.
Turn 7, I bet $9.50 into $17 and get check-raised all-in by 78s.
River 8 for his boat and I suffer a bad beat.


After that session I was down a little almost entirely because of that bad beat. The rest seems like standard problems of missing flops and having to give up on pots before it gets out of hand.
I am obviously a little too focused on the results, but I spotted when things were going wrong for me and walked away.

Next session on iPoker.
Session 9: +$80. Stack a guy twice AA v KK and him calling down my nut-flush.
Session 10: -$6
Session 11: +$3
Session 12: +$20. Taking down standard pots
Session 13: -$8
Session 14: +$20 more standard plays

Looking good after this run. Up for the day. Feeling confident. Try for one more session.

Last iPoker session
Session 15: -$31
Lost two $15 pots. First all-in AJ v A4 (shortstack). River 4. Meh.
Other KT hits a K-flop, villain with 88 turns a set. Small pot because of all-club flop.

Session 16: -$6
Session 17: -$62
-$50 when I pushed AK pre-flop into KK (posted about it in SHNL and most seem to think the play wasn't too out of line).
Session 18: +7
Session 19: -$14
Forced to give up with 99 after 3-bet and c-bet after turn A and villain plays back.

Session 20: -$53
First really bad hand:
AKs, raise and called OOP.
Flop 764 rainbow.
I bet $4, raised to $10 and call.
Turn is a K and I call two big bets on turn and river. Villain had 44 and I think I could have played better against obvious strength (raised flop, bet two streets v TPTK...)

Session 21: -$12
Session 22: -$0.80
Session 23: +$80 TPTK push v OESD and held up + KK overpair taking down raised pot.
Session 24: -$2
Session 25: -$6
Session 26: -$13

After the AK push I felt awkward; recovered with teh stacking in session 23. Finally penultimate hand of the session my TPTK runs into a flopped set and that puts me well down for the day (was about -$15 before that).

Overall I played almost 1k hands and lost $67
Seem to be even over the smaller pots, maybe a little ahead.

Big pots:
+3 stacks.
-3 stacks (4-outer, AK v KK, TPTK v set).

Obviously if I hadn't lost the 4-outer I'd be up $60 today, so that's something to take heart from.
I had a few beats going in with the best hand v shortstacks.

My AK play in that one stacking is questionable, but again, in the SHNL forum it wasn't overly criticized.
My play of TPTK v set (got raised on flop, strong later-street betting) maybe should have got me off that hand.

So overall okay. Obviously results-focus is hard to drop and is probably affecting me negatively. Too many leaks still to fix.

Days left: 3
Hands played: 13,325
Profit: -$160