Tilted post.. coming up...

So yes I'm writing this tilted right now. But that's ok, its probably good that way.

I just lost 4k in about 30mins. I don't mind most of the stack offs really. One of them was mega bad but the rest were ok.

But I'm still tilted. Just more at myself and how I can't get anywhere right now. Where right now means months. I have no consistency in my game at alllll. Some days I am SOOOO sick on, and I'm really good those days. Then the next day, different person entirely, and undoubtedly lose everthing I won from the previous days in like 1/10th the time.

I read a bit of "elements of poker" and it talks about your A game and your C game. The problem is I think my positive winrate for my A game is lets say x bb/100 but I think my winrate for my C game is actually like -3x bb/100. So that means to be a breakeven player I need to play at least 3x more hands under my A game than my C game.

That's not happening right now at all. Right now its like an accomplishment when I play a solid full day and I'm like "wow I played good today"... instead of a rare occurrence when I play bad and am like "god I played bad today".

DEATH TO MY C GAME! Seriously. Serously. If I wanna get anywhere, that's the only way.

I'm contemplating putting postit notes on my monitor. They will say:
"FOLD"
"Do you think he's bluffing? He's not. FOLD"
"Oh he might have a missed draw. He doesn't. FOLD"
"You're gonna bluff aren't you? Don't. FOLD"
"QTo UTG? wtf. FOLD"

Ok. That's my tilted rant. Operation stop SUCKING starting NOW.