dranger - Sorry you're having a hard time right now. Your IRL issues should take priority over poker obv. Don't be too hard on yourself, life can be tough enough without beating yourself up. Also, along those lines, you're only 19. It's not easy for a LOT of people to figure out what they want to do in life. I certainly had no clue at 19 but I got into community college at 20 and had some direction at that point. Just give it some time.

One of the toughest situations is if the people in your life are giving you crap all the time. You might have to put up with it for a while (living with parents, for example) but try to think of ways to get a better/happier arrangement.

Good luck, man!