Hey , didn't realise you'd had such a hard time lately . One thing that you should bear in mind is that you are still young yet. People develope and mature sooo much between 19 and 21 . It was really noticeable to me when I was at Uni , the difference between the 1st year and 3rd years.
To a certain extent though your experience in the marines should have accelerated that processs for you a bit . Is there any difference in the way that you are thinking and playing the game now than you were last year . Was it just cocky youthful confidence last year and now that you've hit some downturns in real life its knocked your poker confidence as well?

anyway wishing you luck in the grind back.