Slev, there is absolutely nothing wrong with being a recreational player. That is what you are, because that is how you play, and there's nothing wrong with that. You are gambling. It took me over 3 months to do what you did TWICE in just over a week. You didn't do that by following BRM, you gambled, and that's OK. Just be honest with yourself. The world doesn't need another pro poker player. But if eventually going pro is what you want, master one game at a time, play within your roll, and maintain your discipline. GL.
