Slev , can I suggest an alternative method of bank roll management you could employ. Do you have a friend /family/wife who would set up an account at PS which would hold most of your bankroll.with your winnings you transfer that back to the escrow account so that you leave yourself 3 or 4 buyins for the level that you are properly rolled for.should you NEED any of your roll back due to a losing streak they will only transfer back say 2 buyins per day.
Once you've blown it for the day , thats it , go do some study , watch some videos and prepare for the next day. You may decide to grind the 2 BI allowance up on the 2NL tables but once you have passed the 4 BI limit on your account you transfer some back to the escrow.
The whole point of this is to try and instil some discipline. It might annoy the hell out of you doing it, but how much have your past failures done that too.
Another thing you really must face up to is that you have a gambling problem. The signs are all there just by reading this blog. You have to accept it and ultimately decide whether you can manage your problem whilst playing poker or whether in the long run, unfortunately , abstinance is going to be your solution.
A classic symptom of a problem is trying to hide it. After the drunken blowout we heard that its all changed I've learnt my lesson. then we heard about the 20$ DON 's and even later we find out that the 20$ DON's were financed by a 60$ SNG where your entire bankroll could have disappeard in moments.I'm not sure If the 100NL was a typo or not but if it wasn't , what were you thinking of. Anyway thats the reason for my proposal for having an escrow hold your bankroll so that you can never put it on the line in its entirety again.You're also going to have to let the escrow be able to log in or see your cashier as well so that they can keep a check on how much you are keeping in your account and the escrow.
