I prefer this to the typical blog format because people can talk about what you're talking about and stuff.

The plan for this year was to take off from school and start back this fall semester (which obviously hasn't happened) because I've fallen into a bit of a pickle this year. So much has happened I don't even really want to get into it all, but the short version (believe it or not, despite the length) is basically like this: My girlfriend has been having a lot of health problems that require a lot of time and attention, and this has been going on for months and months now. She's not able to drive or work, and my earlier poker winnings are sort of holding all of this together since my game has went all to shit since all of this started happening. I seriously went almost straight from 3-3.5 ptbb/100 at 100nl over 500k+ hands and 2.5-3 ptbb/100 at 200nl over 200k+ hands to like 2 ptbb/100 at 50nl over the past 150k. To make matters worse, I have comparably little time to figure things out since she requires my full attention at multiple random intervals during the day. Random note that I'm throwing in here after I've typed most of this out: my parents are also going to probably be getting a divorce within the next 6 months because my mom's health has declined in the past 2-3 years and all this other shit; this situation also takes up a lot of time for me since I help my mom with a lot of stuff that my dad and two dumbass brothers (age 14 and 18) are too sorry to help with. When I do have time for poker, I have to basically drag myself to my desk to play or study because I don't want to because I feel like total shit all the time.

Brag or beat?: I've lost like 12 pounds in the past 4 months even though I've been eating worse and worse and getting less exercise.

So far I've been dealing with things the best I can, sort of breaking even from one month to the next after taxes and bills and such, waiting for a time when things would be sorted out a bit and I could get back to beating the shit out of full ring NLHE. The problem is that things have taken longer than I expected to make any sort of turnaround, and it will likely be months from now before we see any real progress with my girlfriend's situation, so I've got to get back on the ball.

What's so weird is that I feel like I have a much, much better understanding of poker than I did 9 months ago but I keep playing like shit when I'm at the tables, soooo we're going to work on that. Now that I've rambled on for a bit, I'm going to get some food and figure out what the hell I'm going to do.