Stampede of Carrots

I like how you show how todays session went well in terms of money won, but then how you explained your dissatisfaction, the reasons why, and what you did wrong and what you need to do to correct it.

FML



I played like a moron today and ran pretty fuckin' bad too.

My red line ois actually hurrendous for the last few thousand hands. Yeah this can be variacne, but it actually feels like it's a result of 4 bet bluffing and getting shoved on and folding, check raising flops and getting shoved on and all the other spew or non spew that has led to me shipping like 1/3rd of my stack into the pot then folding in the last few days. I'm getting seriously frustrated to the point I just don't want to play anymore.

It's happened again. I've been too focussed on volume that I've just forgot to study, learn, think and remember what it is to play well. I just feel like I'm going nowhere right now. I keep waiting for a breakthrough and it just doesn;t happen. Every time I have a good day the next day is wretchid. FML.

I was playing badly all day, but I still don't feel like I asploded or anything. I stopped when I got 99 in on 983 in a 3-bet pot and got 2 outered by QQ on the turn. That was the final straw and I was feeling pretty miserable.

I'm supposed to put in 35K this month and I don't know what the fuck to do because I'm not enjoying putting in the volume. It's actually affecting me like emotionally in a bad way. Like, I actually feel sad for hours after a losing session, it;s fucked up. I need some way of detaching my fucking self from results. I can't fucking stop being so results orientated, I have to check my BR all the time, I can't fucking help it. I want to be fucking happy and distanced from results and love poker for the things I love about poker, not be it's bitch that gets slapped about through my own indsicipline and flaws. I don't know whether to just scrap having to play the last of these hands this month or just pay the $100 and not subject myself to forced volume which will result in not fixing any of the problems I have and harm my win rate or lack of. Idk wtf to do. I guess I'll see how I feel in the morning when I wake up since I need to play like 2.5K to keep up the pace.

So frustrated with the last 2 months it's unreal. I'm going to post lots of the hands that I feel have killed the red line and get some insight on how bad they are. I may just need a good flaming. I think I feel how TUFF FUSH felt after every single session he played, this cannot be good. GOD DAMN MOTEHR FUCKER SON OF A GOD DAMN BITCH......SON OF...A...GOD...DAMN.....MOTHER....FUCKING......BIT CH.

*goes to the site with a bunch of Tuff Fish's quotes*