NEEDING to make money because you don't have much income is a very bad place to be. Right now you should be focused on building your BR as much as possible without having to worry each time you lose a few buyins.

9 buyins in 1500 hands is a lot...are you sure they were all coolers and bad beats? That being said, yeah it's definitely possible to run that bad and it's definitely possible to run even worse. You just have to fight through it. IMO, it's the most difficult thing to master when it comes to playing poker. You seem to have a good attitude, so just keep working at it. I lost 14 buyins over 5k hands at the start of the month, so I pretty much know how you feel