So it's been a while since I last posted. I'll admit my last posts are at best embarrassing and at worst just absolute verbal diarrhea not worthy of being read. However, I'll leave them there to remind myself of a mind state I hope to never be in again.

After getting a wake up slap in the face thanks to my guys in the IRC channel I have become remotivated in a way I certainly wasn't before despite feeling like I was (lol sentence structure). Gone are my days of auto-piloting 6 tables for a .08bb/100 hands and thinking that I am actually accomplishing anything. Recently there has been a lot of new responsibilities in my life and as a result I am needing to manage my time that much better. I am focusing on studying both in school and in poker a lot more than I have previously and I feel like it's paying off. I have recently received a 100 dollar bonus on FT that needs to be worked off in the next month, though I will most likely fall short since I have my baseball spring break trip coming up halfway through March.

Speaking of baseball, it has been a great source of inspiration for my poker game because of the amount of work and mindset that I approach that game with. I truly enter every bullpen, game, and practice with improving and winning at the foremost of my mind and this is starting to rub off on my poker brain.

Additionally, I recently got a job over the internet with the old company I used to work for testing some of their websites for bugs and though the pay is not exceptional by any means it certainly gives me a little bit of a comfort zone to the point where my poker can take longer to come along.

I'm trying, for the first time in my life, to keep everything in balance and to give each aspect of life 100% effort while also staying organized. It's certainly a tough job juggling poker, baseball, classes, work, and still managing to get enough sleep to function throughout the day but despite that I'm not feeling a lot of pressure and am actually relishing the challenge.

More updates with more poker related stuff later.