reading your posts I can say with certainty that at the very least you can beat 50nl, however I can also understand taking a break because of the stress that comes with poker when you are running bad over consecutive months. I distinctly remember in July of last year driving home from a casino and I had sworn off playing poker to try and make money (returning to recreational player status) because May+June+1st half of July I was playing bad and losing consistently.

I'll be happy to sweat you whenever the urge to play returns