Had the worst tilt session today since I came back to poker...

It started off with my KK against AA, then AA get sucked out on by KK, then sets under set, then I have TT, flop comes T92 all diamonds, we get it in on flop and he already got the nut flush and I don't suck out.

After this, I start doing retarded shit and spewing (by this point already down 3.5 BI). I move up to 25PL because I know the game there are fishy but I still end up doing stupid shit and after around 4 hours of trying to get my money back I end up down 90$, which brings my BR from 350$ to 250$...

Because of all this retarded shit i've done today, I decided to exclude myself from poker until wednesday. I promised myself that if I broke any of my own rules, then I would ban myself from poker for 3 days and this is what i'm doing.

Rules I broke this session
- No session will take more than 2 hours
- I will stick to my BR plan
- Play no more than 4 tables

I think that this session has made me realize that my aggro BR plan is rather ridiculous... Sure I may be good enough to play at 25NL or 50NL but that doesn't mean that I have the BR to do so. From now on i'll slow down with my BR management. Not moving up to 25NL until I have 600$ in the bank. This will probably take me until the end of February to do...

Rules of my game. I set these rules up for myself so that I would be able to
- balance my life
- make sure I did not play too much poker
- reduce the ammount of emotional stress I go through
Maybe I will change these in the future, but for now I think that the rules I have set up are rather good

- No session lasts longer than 2 hours. I have an alarm clock which sets off after 2 hours, as soon as it rings, I should quit posting my blinds and leave the table.
- Only 1 session on weekdays (unless holiday)
- Only 2 sessions max on holidays and weekends
- I may not start a session in the morning unless I have showerred and eaten breakfast
- No moving up limits in the middle of a session
- 4 tables maximum
- If I break ANY of these rules in ANY single session, I must self-exclude myself from poker for the next 3 days

Even with these rules, I should still get in plenty of time to play poker and should be getting +14hr/week unless I end up breaking these rules and force myself to self-exclude myself... Hence it is better idea that i stick to these rules so I will actually be able to play more poker.

My new BR plan
- Move up to 25NL at 600$

errm after this we'll see when I can move up to 50NL . Hopefully I'll be at 25NL by the end of Jan/beginning of Feb.

Anyways, in the mean time, I guess I can seriously study some poker atm.

(I actually feel a lot better after writing this post wtf?)