I dont understand very well what u say. My english is no good.
I dont know ur age, im still young and i was younger which means , i was naive and believe on "soulmates, true-love" and stuff.
Even all this was a mistake ... i used to have great fun and want to spend 100% of my time with her , marry her , grow-old with her.
So even i really dont understand what u mean , since u are not in my shoes i not care what u say "sorry"