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  1. #12826
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    Quote Originally Posted by MadMojoMonkey View Post
    My vaporizer is awesome.
    I think I'm going to name my penis vaporizer because I want to start more sentences this way...
    LOL OPERATIONS
  2. #12827
    Quote Originally Posted by MadMojoMonkey View Post
    My vaporizer is awesome.

    I have a rebuildable, and have completed my most successful build so far.

    It's a 2-3 coil with ribbon wire, running ~0.8 Ohms. I'm using an 18650 battery w/ ~4.2 V.

    I get think white clouds now, with lots of flavor.
    mmmmmmmmmm think white clouds

    Now I wanna see this contraption of yours. I just have one standard meh-ok standup unit that was given to me recently.
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    It's 5 squares-to-an-inch graph paper
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    hah!

    science bitches!

    that's the sickest custom job I've ever seen, not even close.
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    At 4.2 V and 0.8 Ohms, it's running over 22 Watts when it's on. It gets as hot as anything will when that much power is being released inside it.

    The metal mouthpiece is not the best. I have a couple of plastic mouthpieces, but the stainless steel cable wick is too long by ~1/8".
    I'd have to grind it to get the last bit off, and it's only ~1.5" length of wound cable, so that's just about impossible.

    So I just went with it... but it's a bit tall inside the cap. There's a good portion of wick that sticks up above the coil which is useless.

    It's very successful otherwise, and it'll probably be a few weeks before I even think of rebuilding it again. With stainless steel cable and mesh for a wick, it's a lifetime warranty item, now.

    I'll eventually fix the wick length, though. I'm sure I'll get better at wrapping the coil, too. It's as much art as science.
  6. #12831
    i am a cat.
    I will destroy you with sunshine and kittens.
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    who remembers sidetalkin?
    http://www.sidetalkin.com/page-1.html
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    Nelson Mandela lived a full life. His life meant the world to a whole lot of people. Sadly, he's now gone.

    RIP Mandela, you've meant a difference in countless lives. You've been truly great. You'll be missed.
    My dream... is to fly... over the rainbow... so high...


    Cogito ergo sum

    VHS is like a book? and a book is like a stack of kindles.
    Hey, I'm in a movie!
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    Quote Originally Posted by d0zer View Post
    it's my berfday bitchez
    Happy belated bday man! Hope you had a good one!
    My dream... is to fly... over the rainbow... so high...


    Cogito ergo sum

    VHS is like a book? and a book is like a stack of kindles.
    Hey, I'm in a movie!
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    And yes, somebody somewhere must miss somebody who passed away, that's just how it is, quit trolling

    Respect the dead, you never know when it's your turn
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  12. #12837
    Quote Originally Posted by MadMojoMonkey View Post

    It's 5 squares-to-an-inch graph paper
    and to think i paid $175 for the pos i had that stopped working.
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    The tank/atomizer is an AGA-T+ (~$25). The battery case is a Chi-you clone (~$25). The battery is an 18650 (~$15 for 2). Altogether, about the cost of a carton of cigarettes.

    It's very sturdy and reliable. The seals on the tank are at the top and bottom of the glass tube. That means that when you tighten the tank together, you tighten the seal on the tank. I prefer this method of sealing the tank.

    I have a tank that was donated to me that leaks. It uses common ring gaskets to seal the tank. They do not press tight enough against the glass tank wall to prevent the juice from getting out. There's no way to tighten them, since they just press against the inside of the tank.
  14. #12839
    doing another shoot on the 14th. this shall be interesting as i'm having a 'make-up artist' do my makeup.

    also getting a 2nd opinion from a diff urologist as it makes 0 sense that everything checks out fine but yet i'm having lower back pain where my kidney is located, nausea on the daily, a shitty fucking appetite, and over-all feeling of weakness.

    in other news, my brother has strep throat so bad that the dr didn't even have to do that swab test thing. short story - one year when we were much younger, my brother, my mom, and i were all sick as fuck at christmas. i had scarlet fever, mom and brother had strep, and dad was fine.

    does anyone know how the fuck to fix the fucking charging port on a laptop to keep it from wiggling around? i was going to solder some shit yesterday, but after taking my laptop apart, and getting to the piece, there's nothing i need to solder, it's just a loose part. from what i've read, getting a new port thingy and installing it would be better since apparently the factory one is shit. i'm also thinking about modding my laptop, as apparently i can install some more RAM. i feel kinda awesome for being able to take my laptop apart and put it back together and it all be running perfectly, besides not being able to fix the wiggly port thingy.
    I will destroy you with sunshine and kittens.
  15. #12840
    If you took something apart as complicated as a laptop without breaking it you have a massive lack of curiosity.
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    Quote Originally Posted by ImSavy View Post
    If you took something apart as complicated as a laptop without breaking it you have a massive lack of curiosity.
    Well, I just really love my laptop, which is why I didn't want to be too curious. It honestly didn't seem too complicated. I just make sure shit goes back like it was.
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    I also referred to the parts as 'doo-dads', 'what-nots', and 'thingies'. I know the name of most the shit, I just was too aggro over the stupid wiggly port thing. I had to step away midway, cause the fucking god damn port thingy was pissing me the fuck off.
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    Quote Originally Posted by ImSavy View Post
    If you took something apart as complicated as a laptop without breaking it you have a knack for engineering.
    FYP
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    Quote Originally Posted by MadMojoMonkey View Post
    FYP
    Yup, the entire profession is a huge pile of technical knowledge on top of the ability to track little screw 6 into little hole 6.
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  20. #12845
    Quote Originally Posted by MadMojoMonkey View Post
    FYP
    This annoys me so much.

    Most engineers learn to fix stuff by taking stuff apart and breaking it in the first place. (and by that i mean most people with logical brains)
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    Quote Originally Posted by ImSavy View Post
    This annoys me so much.

    Most engineers learn to fix stuff by taking stuff apart and breaking it in the first place. (and by that i mean most people with logical brains)
    My degree is in Engineering physics. My father is a mechanical engineer. My friends are mechanical and aerospace engineers. I have the background to know of which I speak.

    I can't name a single mechanical engineer who didn't "get started" by having the curiosity and patience to take something apart, see how it works, and put it back together again, working.

    It's not the only thing it takes to be an engineer, clearly. It it a common thread among mechanical engineers, though.
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    I agree with MMM and don't disagree with ImSavy. An engineer's job is to be careful and recognize and fit every tab C into slot C. A great engineer surely has a wake of broken constructs in his past.
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    Quote Originally Posted by a500lbgorilla View Post
    I agree with MMM and don't disagree with ImSavy. An engineer's job is to be careful and recognize and fit every tab C into slot C. A great engineer surely has a wake of broken constructs in his past.
    OK, agreed.

    Except for the trivializing of the field of careers that make human infrastructure work.
  24. #12849
    Quote Originally Posted by MadMojoMonkey View Post
    My degree is in Engineering physics. My father is a mechanical engineer. My friends are mechanical and aerospace engineers. I have the background to know of which I speak.

    I can't name a single mechanical engineer who didn't "get started" by having the curiosity and patience to take something apart, see how it works, and put it back together again, working.

    It's not the only thing it takes to be an engineer, clearly. It it a common thread among mechanical engineers, though.
    YOu're justnot being honest with yourself though. How much shit have you broke taking stuff apart? My post about chelle's laptop was a joke somewhat (I THOUGHT YOU'D LIKE IT). But seriously a lot of mechanisms you don't understand you learn about by prodding and probing.

    I pulled off a key on my laptop recently (never done that before) to clean dirt out. I then saw the mechanism of how a key works and broke it. I pulled part of it off, I could fix it but I still broke it. My understanding of how it works would have been less (or at least took longer) to see how it works properly.

    Quote Originally Posted by MadMojoMonkey View Post
    OK, agreed.

    Except for the trivializing of the field of careers that make human infrastructure work.
    That's just not what I intended to do at all. I don't even really see how it was an insult in anyway, but you know. If you could do maths you'd do it.

    edit - (that's a joke!)
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    Hey, the watercooler talk tends to be around the great failures of past builds around my parts. The more that you can integrate failures into your design, the better it is.
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    The dude is just not savvy, I don't care what he says.
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  27. #12852
    Never done an engineering thing in my life, but will probably be moving to the engineering program next year for the ultimate goal of computer engineering
  28. #12853
    Quote Originally Posted by wufwugy View Post
    Never done an engineering thing in my life, but will probably be moving to the engineering program next year for the ultimate goal of computer engineering
    They aren't very similar are they? I lived with a lot of people who did chemical engineering and they wouldn't have had a clue about either and apart from the basic maths I dunno how it'd help.
  29. #12854
    engineering and computer engineering? no clue
  30. #12855
    Quote Originally Posted by wufwugy View Post
    engineering and computer engineering? no clue
    dunno if you're taking the piss or a general engineering degree in the UK and US means somethign completley different.
  31. #12856
    doesn't matter where i go, i don't bring piss with me
  32. #12857
    Quote Originally Posted by ImSavy View Post
    I pulled off a key on my laptop recently (never done that before) to clean dirt out. I then saw the mechanism of how a key works and broke it. I pulled part of it off, I could fix it but I still broke it. My understanding of how it works would have been less (or at least took longer) to see how it works properly.
    Maybe you're just a shitty engineer if you're constantly breaking stuff you take apart. I mean I'm a bit of a shitty engineer myself, but I'm still taking stuff like toasters, lamps, vacuum cleaners, fridges and shit that wiff nags me about and most of the time I can put it back together properly again. Sometimes I even fix the problem.

    I got into taking laptops apart when I had this shitty old dell laptop from like 2001 that kept having its motherboard fry, and I'd find a new one on ebay for $30 and replace it. It's not really any different from building a desktop except the parts are all smaller, there's more random screws, more shit integrated into the motherboard. Chelle it sounds like you might need to just glue that shit in place. Of course you're potentially preventing any repairs in the future by doing so but meh, it'll probably be out of date soon anyway so I say just pour 2 liters of epoxy in there and be done with it. Alternatively duct tape.

    Actually fuck that I'm a great engineer.
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    Wait, D0zer isn't a blacksmith?

    I'm pretty sure you're a blacksmith, dude.
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    The exact same mathematics describes a spring-mass-damper system as a circuit with a resistor, capacitor, and an solenoid.

    The wave equation describes how electron density moves in a wire.

    At the bottom level, it's all the same math. Second order partial differential equations are the doorway to understanding everything.

    Once you get past the basic level of understanding, though, the specialization is evident.


    I can design and build an analog or digital circuit... but not the chips that I'd be using to do it, and not a computer. I could make a calculator, though, in an afternoon or 2 if I had the parts I needed.
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    The mathematics of dozer's epic beard are still unknown.
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    the epicness of dozer's epic beard still escapes us mere mortals
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    Quote Originally Posted by wufwugy View Post
    doesn't matter where i go, i don't bring piss with me
    Must be one of the main reasons you want to move into computing then.

    I actually looked it up just to check and I was actually 100% right. Not even really slightly related. To the point where if you completed your first year at uni in either of the two it'd be impossible to change to the other.
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    impossible you say?

    we're likely talking about different things. and it really doesn't matter
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    Quote Originally Posted by MadMojoMonkey View Post
    The exact same mathematics describes a spring-mass-damper system as a circuit with a resistor, capacitor, and an solenoid.

    The wave equation describes how electron density moves in a wire.

    At the bottom level, it's all the same math. Second order partial differential equations are the doorway to understanding everything.

    Once you get past the basic level of understanding, though, the specialization is evident.


    I can design and build an analog or digital circuit... but not the chips that I'd be using to do it, and not a computer. I could make a calculator, though, in an afternoon or 2 if I had the parts I needed.
    I have enjoyed an absolutely brilliant book on oscillations recently. And you're absolutely right, it all comes down to math. As math is the highest fidelity, most accurate, least capricious description of any observed phenomenon. I believe it loses something in the translation, but it holds on to so much I couldn't possibly make a claim against it.
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    Quote Originally Posted by wufwugy View Post
    impossible you say?
    bout as likely as ya novel
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    Quote Originally Posted by wufwugy View Post
    Wait, D0zer isn't a blacksmith?

    I'm pretty sure you're a blacksmith, dude.
    I have a BMath in computer science with a minor in lumberjackery and psychology.
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    Quote Originally Posted by ImSavy View Post
    bout as likely as ya novel
    stellar post

    and yes
  43. #12868
    it just lightning-ed outside. what the fuck.

    also - i dont think glue would be the best for the inside of the laptop? it's actually been giving me less of a hassle today, so i think i might have made it a tad better.
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    SMH

    I couldn't make this up.
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    I've been watching the show
    Scandal
    Anyone else watching this?

    It's a solid drama with excellent actors, and occasionally teribad cheesy writing. What can you do?

    Anyhoo

    I think it's a gripping show. The fact that one of the characters is the President of the USA is seriously not a bonus for me. What a meathead.

    except for the whole blah blah president blah blah teenage-style romance from otherwise very capable, intelligent, and altogether hard core adults.

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    TIL I fucking hate DIY. I also have 4 rooms to paint plus the exterior of the house over the next 5 days. FML.
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    Quote Originally Posted by rong View Post
    TIL I fucking hate DIY. I also have 4 rooms to paint plus the exterior of the house over the next 5 days. FML.
    sounds like fun imo
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    diy painting is the worst
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    I don't mind the painting. That's quite satisfying. It's the prep work. The filling, the sanding, the masking tape, the moving furniture. And the fucking cutting in. God dam the cutting in.
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    before3.jpgbefore1.jpgbefore.jpgafter.jpgafter2.jpg

    I just finished a kitchen upgrade at my sisters including adding a dishwasher instal and extending the counter space 5'. Painting sucks ya, but try hanging a pantry door, new appliance instal and counter tops. What a weekend that was.
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    Quote Originally Posted by jyms View Post
    before3.jpgbefore1.jpgbefore.jpgafter.jpgafter2.jpg

    I just finished a kitchen upgrade at my sisters including adding a dishwasher instal and extending the counter space 5'. Painting sucks ya, but try hanging a pantry door, new appliance instal and counter tops. What a weekend that was.
    who's the baldy in picture 2?
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    Quote Originally Posted by rong View Post
    You wanna come over?
    If I don't have to move stuff around and I get free and good foods.

    Quote Originally Posted by rong View Post
    I don't mind the painting. That's quite satisfying. It's the prep work. The filling, the sanding, the masking tape, the moving furniture. And the fucking cutting in. God dam the cutting in.
    My Dad did painting for years before he started working a factory job, and then had 5 heart attacks. It's crazy how easy cutting in for him is. It makes me siiiiick to see how easy it so for him.
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    Quote Originally Posted by rong View Post
    I don't mind the painting. That's quite satisfying. It's the prep work. The filling, the sanding, the masking tape, the moving furniture. And the fucking cutting in. God dam the cutting in.

    yah my pretty much my thoughts on this
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    So I'm thinking of getting my kids this: http://www.amazon.com/MindWare-44156...d_bxgy_t_img_y

    I saw this 1-star review: "Do not buy this. The book with the examples shows examples that CANNOT be done. It's physically not possible to build these structures without any fasteners so they fall over at the slightest tremor. VERY FRUSTRATING and Completely discouraging."

    Concerned it might be too hard, i saw this response to the above review: "My 8 year has built almost everything in the book"

    so awesome.
    So you click their picture and then you get their money?
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    I could quite happily play with that right now.
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    Quote Originally Posted by Chelle View Post

    My Dad did painting for years before he started working a factory job, and then had 5 heart attacks. It's crazy how easy cutting in for him is. It makes me siiiiick to see how easy it so for him.
    Yeah I had a friend who was a painter and decorator. He helped me decorate a few years back and it was ridiculous how quick and easy he could cut in. He didn't even need the masking tape because his lines were so straight and accurate. Wish he hadn't moved.
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    I like this. Defo has werewolf value.

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    Quote Originally Posted by rong View Post
    Yeah I had a friend who was a painter and decorator. He helped me decorate a few years back and it was ridiculous how quick and easy he could cut in. He didn't even need the masking tape because his lines were so straight and accurate. Wish he hadn't moved.
    Yeah - Dad doesn't use the masking tape either. He's taught me, but obviously I'm not as good. He's tried to teach my Mom, but she doesn't do it the way he taught her, and ends up making a mess that he has to go back and fix. We helped paint my brothers new house, and she was saying how she was going to help and I was like, "Uhhhh, are you sure about that." Then she did, and Dad was like, "Ohgod what is this mess". House ended up looking great.

    One job he did when he was in the painting business - the daughter-in-law of the owner of Wilco [gas station] lives in the Winston-Salem area, or at least used to. He said she wanted spray paint in the library, and him and his boss were thinking, "wtf is this bitch cray cray" - but they worked on it for a while, he said they'd spray the room, sand the room, spray the room, and did that a fuckton of times. Took a couple of weeks or something, I'm not sure on timing, just know it was a bitch to do from what he says. But, he said after they were done, it was the most beautiful brown color. Oh, and they did like layered crown molding. But it was in different shades of brown as well. When I think about how it looks in my head, it sounds pretty, but also sounds like a fuckton of painting.
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    It's weird to be completely integrated after pretty much all my life hearing different voices in my head. As of early August I'm 100% 1 identity.

    Even though I'm scared of fucking up and shit [massive fear of failure], I'm excited about getting into school. It's also weird to have to push yourself to deal with emotions and not just push them away, because I know if I was to start doing that again, I'd end up where I was. I feel cheesy when I say this, but every day is some fucked up battle of my old self VS me now. Old self was scared to speak up in fear of someone possibly getting offended, new self is more scared of me not speaking up and making sure I don't get ran over. I don't want to be rude to people, but I also will not let someone think for one moment they can be disrespectful towards me for no reason.

    I go to therapy on the weekly basis, still, and now I'm dealing with PTSD and anxiety more-so than anything else. When I told my therapist about how I've completely integrated, she was so happy and nearly cried. To think that I did all of these profound steps in my mental health without the 'help' of medication is crazy to me, but I'm so glad that I did. Looking back it's such a strange thing that I used to be such a shambled person that was rarely -me-, I was all these different versions of myself.

    Now the only problem I have to really 100% get under control is the seizures, but all I have to do with that is keep my anxiety under control. I've also noticed that my anger is fucking insane. I'm quick to get pissed, but I've learned how to bring myself down without flipping my shit on someone, even if they need to be flipped out on. Meditation is something that's helped me more than I realize, and even though I fought like hell to not do it when I was first being taught, and I fucking HATED doing it, I'm glad I did. Part of me feels like it was 100% completely unfair to the people around me that they had to see me like that, that they had to interact with me when I was at such a low point mentally and physically. I'm glad they were, and I'm also glad that I was able to crash land and build myself completely back up with tid-bits of knowledge they gave me, I.E. meditation and breathing.

    So, thanks spoon, sorry I was such a cunt at the end.

    In othernews - I'm doing a photoshoot Saturday and I'm nervous because I'mma be doing pin-up boudoir with weird alien makeup or something, idk. Either way, I'm nervouuuuus.
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    @chelle... that gave me a nice, warm squishy feeling inside to read. I don't know you, but I'm very happy to hear that you've become more comfortable being who you are. Some people will never understand how hard it can be to listen to and trust yourself... I guess for them it's easy or obvious, idk...

    Keep fighting the good fight, girl.
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    Quote Originally Posted by MadMojoMonkey View Post
    @chelle... that gave me a nice, warm squishy feeling inside to read. I don't know you, but I'm very happy to hear that you've become more comfortable being who you are. Some people will never understand how hard it can be to listen to and trust yourself... I guess for them it's easy or obvious, idk...

    Keep fighting the good fight, girl.
    Thank you. I feel like I've wasted a lot of my life living in fear, and even though I'm still fearful, I push myself. Today I started doing some research and asking around about a local woman's college, as I'd be more comfortable and less fearful. Plus, from the information I got from one of the girls I know that went there and her husband is now taking night classes there, it sounds like a very great place to go.

    Side note - Lady and her husband got married a couple weeks ago, he's a retired[?] Marine. He lost both legs and a few fingers, due to an IED. Here's the story - http://m.journalnow.com/news/local/a....html?mode=jqm
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    Quote Originally Posted by Chelle View Post
    It's weird to be completely integrated after pretty much all my life hearing different voices in my head. As of early August I'm 100% 1 identity.

    Even though I'm scared of fucking up and shit [massive fear of failure], I'm excited about getting into school. It's also weird to have to push yourself to deal with emotions and not just push them away, because I know if I was to start doing that again, I'd end up where I was. I feel cheesy when I say this, but every day is some fucked up battle of my old self VS me now. Old self was scared to speak up in fear of someone possibly getting offended, new self is more scared of me not speaking up and making sure I don't get ran over. I don't want to be rude to people, but I also will not let someone think for one moment they can be disrespectful towards me for no reason.

    I go to therapy on the weekly basis, still, and now I'm dealing with PTSD and anxiety more-so than anything else. When I told my therapist about how I've completely integrated, she was so happy and nearly cried. To think that I did all of these profound steps in my mental health without the 'help' of medication is crazy to me, but I'm so glad that I did. Looking back it's such a strange thing that I used to be such a shambled person that was rarely -me-, I was all these different versions of myself.

    Now the only problem I have to really 100% get under control is the seizures, but all I have to do with that is keep my anxiety under control. I've also noticed that my anger is fucking insane. I'm quick to get pissed, but I've learned how to bring myself down without flipping my shit on someone, even if they need to be flipped out on. Meditation is something that's helped me more than I realize, and even though I fought like hell to not do it when I was first being taught, and I fucking HATED doing it, I'm glad I did. Part of me feels like it was 100% completely unfair to the people around me that they had to see me like that, that they had to interact with me when I was at such a low point mentally and physically. I'm glad they were, and I'm also glad that I was able to crash land and build myself completely back up with tid-bits of knowledge they gave me, I.E. meditation and breathing.

    So, thanks spoon, sorry I was such a cunt at the end.

    In othernews - I'm doing a photoshoot Saturday and I'm nervous because I'mma be doing pin-up boudoir with weird alien makeup or something, idk. Either way, I'm nervouuuuus.
    keep up ze good work
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    I had all 7000 songs in my ipod on shuffle this morning and when two versions of nirvana's "about a girl" came on back to back I wondered if the universe was trying to tell me to get a whore.

    When a third version of the song came on I realized that the songs were actually playing alphabetically.
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    How scary is that Bitches??









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  71. #12896
    wait the battlesex guy is the grizzly beard guy?

    has somebody cooler than dozer ever existed? is it even possible?
  72. #12897
    More importantly, handsomer than Jamie Lannister.
  73. #12898
    Ser Jaime Lannister
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    Thanks RPM, I plan on it.

    I just remembered this, even though I'm not sure how I forgot.

    On Thanksgiving went to the neighbors of my boyfran, and the neighbors kid was shooting a BB gun at cans, and couldn't hit it. Couple of boyfran's friends were over, and his brother as well. Boyfran tried, missed. Boyfran's fran tried twice, missed. Boyfrans brother tried, got it on second try, but does target practice a lot.

    Then I am like, "Hey, I wanna try, I've not shot a BB gun since I was like 8. " They were all lol okay here. There I am, in heels, make-up and hair all did, and lookin' like a cute little lady, aim the gun, hit right above the can the first time, second time hit it. I'm like "BAM!" Then I was proud of myself for hitting a target as small as a soda can from about 50 ft away at a weird angle, after not shooting a gun for almost 20 fucking years. Needless to say I was rubbing that the fuck in, and still think how fucking badass it was that I was able to do that. All I took into account was the way the wind was blowing, and how the target was positioned from where I was. I still feel like a badass when I think about it. I think I'm going to rub that in boyfrans face some more today.

    I was also able to track down a package UPS delivered to the wrong house, and go get it, WITHOUT getting killed.

    Oh, and I made beef stew, yeast rolls, and chocolate chip cookies last night.

    p.s. I think I have PMDD instead of PMS. I go from angry to wanting to cry my eyes out, to feeling crazy happy and then feeling like I'm going to throw up, and then being like OHMYGODIWANTSTEAKNOWDAMNIT, then I'm thinking, "I wonder what chocolate chip cookies with pickles would taste like?" - and that sounds kind of tasty.

    p.s.s. boyfran got his 3dsxl in the mail today with a free game [starfox64], and I am concerned.
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    greatest thing ever



    yes bikes i know u already saw it on reddit

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