I wanted to offer a heartfelt apology to not only you, but every mod, and every other member of FTR for my inexcusable behavior in the past here. I do not expect forgiveness and words were spoken that cannot be taken back or justified.

The reason for this post is just to say that I really regret a lot of things I said and it was very painful for me to have to leave FTR because I really loved it here I met so many great guys and when I think back all I can say is...'how did that happen'

This was the first forum I ever belonged to when I was a fresh faced noob and I was member # 45 here or something like that and had so much fun watching this place grow and tried to do my best to tell people about FTR.

I remember chatting to scgolfer my boy Shane (btw Shane thanks for the .01 stake the other day I shipped it back L0L) on Paradise and got him over here and then guys like fishstick and humphrind and Tyler and man the list goes on. Back in the day when FTR was brand new and the homepage was kinda cheesy lookin and we only had a couple hundred members this was a very special community. I think where I lost it is because I wanted to preserve that and with all the growth came...well problems.

Anyway, I want to a avoid a long ass post here that wasn't my intention but of course I kinda lurk here now and then and I do miss a lot of you guys...and I don't blame anybody who talks smack about me because the truth of the matter is I brought 99% upon myself. But I did just want to say that I wish the best to everybody on this forum....No matter what happened in the past, I have a lot of very fond memories of this forum and was happy to be a part of its growth process. My only real regret is that I didn't use better judgement as a moderator and let everything spiral out of control like it did. I'd like to offer my sincere apologies to everyone for all of it.

Not trying to be a drama queen here just wanted to say that. Not naming any names but there are a lot of guys here (you know you you are) who used to be my friends and I lost that trust and respect via terrible judgement and bad decision making. I just hope once in a while you guys remember how much I loved being a part of FTR instead of just remembering my bad times and all the drama before I left.

Rippy