why do you play full-ring?

to make money? to solve the game (as in "that shit's been played yo")?
to?

I'm struggling with what motivates me at the moment...

I think I beat 50nl (4ptBB/100?) playing up to 12 tables.

I've been successful enough in sticking to conservative bankroll management and dissociating myself from the dollar value of bbs that I'd be happy to take a 51-49 flip if the cards were faceup

I can switch to automatic play and it does just fine

I feel that making too many adjustments right now would:
1) improve my play
2) teach me more
3) set me up better for higher limits
4) probably have a neutral or slightly negative impact on my winrate at the limits I'm playing at.
so should I adjust?

winning and losing feel equally dispassionate

so I find myself experimenting with running 35-28 for a session, just to see how it works... or 8-7... and it works, just not quite as well

I catch myself thinking of dollars in real life as buy-ins, like, pah, it's only a buy-in, why not...

I have an addictive hobby that generates income and is available anytime I choose.

I watch my bankroll jump four buy-ins during a session, and the proportional impact to my bankroll is so low that it feels immaterial
and the same if i lose a few buy-ins...

Healthy? Thoughts?

Should I start spending more money on cool shit? (computer, surfboard the last month)
Should I move up? (why? I don't think I can run 2ptBB/100 at 100nl, so where's the rationale in doing so short-term?)

A little confused about this right now....

Money isn't/hasn't been my raison d'etre forever, still isn't. I've dined out of skips in Spain, lived off juggling, chosen one-way tickets over career, spent years climbing/surfing/on the road etc. Broke or not feel fine, I always find food and shelter...
Yet money is the only way to measure success in poker.. initially I played cos it was fun, now I dunno if I would play if it wasn't for the money

There are a bunch of people on this site infinitely better than I am, playing higher limits, winning loads more than I could even dream of - what motivates you?
I'm curious, I know I have so much left to learn, and I'm not sure if I can be bothered....

sound like a whining prat? sorry...