Operation Humble: Road to 50NL
I have a confession to make. I am a terrible poker player. I don't know if I lost the ability to think as a good poker player does or maybe I never had it. Perhaps the combination of bonus whoring and playing set camping ABC poker like a zombie against a party poker donk field is the only way I've ever made money. Those days are over but I don't want my poker days to end. Poor results and tilt from these poor results has me back down to 25NL. If I continue this way I won't have a bankroll left. This operation isn't just a reflection on short term results and goal checkins. It is also a reflection upon how I arrived at this point and how I get myself to a better place.
For a historical recount of my poker life, read this operation thread, http://www.flopturnriver.com/phpBB2/...on-t50227.html, one I quickly abandoned much like my need to improve my game. It's hard sitting down at 25nl and 50nl when you used to play 200 and 400nl. There's a certain pride issue that comes with that and I need to get rid of this. That's why this is operation humble. I'm admitting I'm not a good player. I'm the 90% who think they're better than the other 90%. Finally admitting this to myself is the best thing I've done for my poker self in years.
My poker game for the last year has involved playing every version of cash game poker, HU, 6max, FR, 1 tabling, 14 tabling etc. I don't have any method or system. I make buyins playing tight, I then blow it lagging it up. I make buyins 3 tabling and concentrating, I blow it 14 tabling. I have 0 consistency in a game that requires it.
I've always been a believer in forgetting sunk costs and making the best decisions with what you have now. So here's what I have now:
A br of $550.
Hardwired poker instincts that are incorrect and damaging to my game. I don't think anymore when making decisions.
An honest desire to relearn and grind.
I've said it a million times before that I plan on posting more and being dedicated to the game. I've abandoned a million goals. I am like this with everything I've done in my life and maybe this won't be any different. I honestly want it to be different and hopefully you guys can help me along the way.
I'm going to 3 table 6max 25nl. I'm not going to play anywhere else. I realize my BR may be a little shallow but I'm comfortable with this and will adjust accordingly to downswings if needed. My goal is to make it to 1500 and 50nl.
