Dude, Not to be a dick but you need to put poker down. It just isn't going to work for you. Also PLEASE, never start doing drugs, drinking, smoking, or anything else addicting. It will ruin your life!! You just don't have the personality for this game.
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There were a number of reasons for this but the main reason was that I didn't follow the rules of the game well enough. That is I didn't follow the PF strategy advice to the letter, and when I did I got too involved in post flop hands that I had no business being involved with
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I know that poker is a long term game and yet sometimes the situation gets the better of me. That's going to be the greatest determinator of whether or not I can beat these stakes now I think, my discipline in the actual hand. There's not much more I can learn about pre-flop strategy for beating 2nl that I don't already know. I also know that I need to fold when I'm beat. The key is going to be doing that regularly and religiously.
Those two quotes say it all. I have read all of your operations threads and it is clear that you have taken a lot of time reading, studying, outlining, and regurgitating poker strategy. You have actually put in writing more strategy than I employ with any regularity beating 25NL-100NL and you are no further along then when you started. This game isn't for everyone. It's your personality man, nothing you can do about it.
If you want to continue playing poker in any meaningful way you need to put down the strategy books and start taking a look at self help books IMO. Patience, self control, accountability. These are the areas you need to master first. Don't even bother with poker strategy until your figured these out. Good luck!