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$100nl - Thoughts on an Emotional Response
PokerStars No-Limit Hold'em, $1.00 BB (9 handed) Poker-Stars Converter Tool from FlopTurnRiver.com (Format: FlopTurnRiver)
BB ($111)
UTG ($20)
UTG+1 ($92)
MP1 ($62.35)
MP2 ($102.40)
MP3 ($48.55)
CO ($148.80)
Button ($92.45)
Hero ($99)
Preflop: Hero is SB with 9 , 9 .
5 folds, CO calls $1, 1 fold, Hero raises to $6, BB calls $5, CO folds.
Flop: ($13) J , 9 , A (2 players)
Hero bets $11
Villain is 31/18/1.5 over about 50 hands.
On the flop I first realized that I had a set on a fairly dry board (the only hands I'm worried about are QT and T8 here) against a really loose opponent who isn't particularly passive. This should be a check on the flop for a pretty straight-forward reason: I get the most value from checking since he completely misses the flop here a lot.
There was a brief moment where I realized this, but then I had a sort of emotional response and led out instead. At first it was "oh shit I have a set" but then as I started to overcome that initial urge, it's like I found an excuse to bet anyway. That excuse, however retarded it may sound, was "he'll probably raise me since I lead here a lot". That was all the justification I needed, and I led out as you see here.
But wait a minute -- does he really raise me here even if I do lead here a lot? He's not particularly aggressive, and he has basically no history with me (I only have 60 hands with him when I probably have over 350k hands of 100nl logged over the past 6 months). The reason that I came up with had a bit of sense to it, but there was no real truth for it. As soon as I thought I had a good reason (sort of an excuse to myself to bet) I fired away.
What's more is that he played back at me and I doubled up (he had A9). Immediately afterward (a few seconds later), I could feel a subtle sense of being justified in my "decision" to bet the flop because he "played back at me", but the thought process shut off there, ignoring the fact that this was results-oriented thinking. It's like my thought process was trying to protect itself from the feeling of being wrong by stopping in key places that fall just between assuming that we're right and assuming that we're wrong (the first point was during the hand and the second point was the feeling afterwards).
A couple of minutes later, I had a sense for what had happened psychologically in the hand, and I jotted down a note for myself to look at it and think about it later. Now as I sit here analyzing the hand and my thought process, it's interesting how I see a bigger picture compared to when I was actually there in the moment of action.
Anyway, I feel like I just made a fairly important discovery [about myself] or something, so I felt compared to share. Input is welcome as always.
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