Ash256's Poker Adventure

[Ash256]

Aiggght all..

This is a general blog/operation thread; I felt it was apt seeing as I'm a bit of an FTR reg these days.


In this thread I shall try to:-

- Use witty prose
- Post interesting things'n'stuff
- Focus on various angles of poker that aren't normally covered

In this thread I shall try not to:

- Post endless hand histories of $50 pots


There you have it, enjoy reading!

[Ash256]

Graph since I got my comp.





I'm now a 100NL reg having moved up the ranks from 25NL.

[Jack Sawyer]

GOGOGOGO

[kmind]

You da man, GL. Will keep an eye out for this one.

[Ash256]

Thanks for the comments guys..

This month has sucked, I've had absolutely 0 motivation, which is a total bitch - last month I played something like 23k which was pretty sexy because I went on a 12-buyin downswing which gave me something to push for.. This month so far, I can't have played more than 10k.

I complain that I'm always skint and do fuck all about it.. aren't I the genius?


So just now I get round to playing my 1st session in a week, get through 1.2k hands and end up BREAKEVEN. Jesus. At least a $50 loss would've given me a bit of a kick up the chuff.

Sigh..

I think I'ma grind out another k or so hands now despite the fact that peak-time is over and the games are gonna get worse. Bugger it, rakeback ftw.

[Jack Sawyer]

Don't wait till you're down to pick up your A-game. Don't even think this way.
This is really, really bad. A leak you HAVE to address pronto!!

[Ash256]

[Ash256]

Fucking poker.

The most common cry of the 85/2 Betfair Whale in its natural habitat is OMFG RIGGED and how it's impossible to win there - always makes me chuckle - sometimes I even tell them it's because they suck ass and throw in the mandatory HU challenge. It tickles me to know the games will always be good as long as the bad players are externalising the multiple deposit factors.

But..

You know what's fucking creepy?

In my moments of insanity, I too have had those very same moments. The games are absolutely stunningly beautiful, yet my green-tinted money vehicle keeps getting stuck. Does it have square wheels? I guess so.

To paraphrase, I've never run this shitty. It's not that I even get crazy downswongs - it's just that no matter what I do, those beautiful profitable situations - TPTK vs. TPshitK, etc fail to materialise.

With a great deal of embarassment, I present my all-time Betfair graph:



^^
Mmmm, tastes like the pre-made sandwich you bought for lunch which you've realised is complete crap but feel compelled to eat regardless because the idea of hunger is too much.





Now we have the mandatory GRAPHZ section out the way, I want to talk about the real meat 'n' veg behind poker:

I either run like shit or I play like shit. Either way, results-wise, I'm only actually scraping out a win. Why not just give up? Why not get a more productive and less stressful hobby? Why not just sit and watch TV of an evening like any self-respecting member of the rat-race?

I can't give up. Poker is more than just a silly little card game. It's more than a test of wits. Poker represents more within my little box than it should - poker not only represents, but is a dream. Poker is the idea that saving up for 3 years to get just one thing that I want is neither valid nor necessary. Without poker, there is no longer the shiny barrier between my psyche and the horrendous prospect of permanently grinding 9-5 until death.

No rational self-respecting non-subservient man in the cold light of day would warm to the idea of working ones nuts off to make his wealthier peers richer.

I need things. I need stuff to get my music career off the ground. I need a car, software and quality equipment. This will take 2 years - and this 2 years means careful spending, not taking holidays and not going to music festivals or doing anything fun - which means actively making an effort to not live properly until I'm 21.

You think I'm willing to do that?

Fuck off.



I want to make investments, but I can't do that until I actually have something to invest. It becomes more and more evident that poker is the only way to make the required monies to escape from the bullshit.

I have to continue grinding because there's nothing else. Even if I scrape out 5 bucks an hour, it is still progress and I will grow as a player, and more than anything else, the dream will survive.

Because what the fuck else do I have?

- Ash

[daven]

dreaming = good
kick it yo

[Monsieur_chat]

Amen man. Keep at it, dreams are what make life worth living.