Soul-crushing "downswing" since november '09 (lol can you even call that a downswing?), every spot is stupid, every flip is impossible to win, etc etc etc

villain is a weak donk 56/28 :

***** Hand History for Game 2210693674 ***** (Boss)
$200.00 USD NL Texas Hold'em - Saturday, June 05, 03:22:45 ET 2010
Table Bad Beat TH 18 (Real Money)

Seat 1 is the button
Seat 1: porter@ ( $20.70 USD )
Seat 2: gusanito85 ( $237.80 USD )
Seat 4: HERO ( $238.30 USD )
Seat 6: guess23 ( $302.20 USD )
gusanito85 posts small blind [$1.00 USD].

HERO posts big blind [$2.00 USD].
** Dealing down cards **
Dealt to HERO
guess23 folds
porter@ raises [$20.70 USD]
gusanito85 calls [$19.70 USD]
HERO raises [$65.27 USD]
gusanito85 calls [$46.57 USD]
** Dealing Flop **
gusanito85 bets [$32.00 USD]

HERO calls [$32.00 USD]
** Dealing Turn **
gusanito85 bets [$138.53 USD]
HERO