I'm on life tilt

[salsa4ever]

I'm on a poker downswing
I've just lost my job
I can't win anything whether I try or not
Shares are going downhill
My girlfriend broke up with me
I now spend 8+ hours a day playing computer games in my room like a degenerate. I don't want to see people. I hate life

damn I feel like shit

[donkbee]

*hug*

msg me on msn or email me if you wanna talk. or i'll bug you sometime this weekend, make sure you're online.

[DaNutsInYoEye]

How about go dancing? I hear salsa dancing is fun... until you slip and get it in your eyes and end up smelling like the $4.95 lunch special from Restuarante Maria Jose.

[bigspenda73]

Dog, we have all felt like this at one time or another. Grab a beer, smoke a bowl and you'll feel better. We all get down on ourselves and shit seems to pile up. Take a deep breath and you'll be back to good before you know it.

[bigred]

dude, just take the plunge and jump, the afterlife is so muich better

ps im drunk

[bigred]

*hug*

msg me on msn or email me if you wanna talk. or i'll bug you sometime this weekend, make sure you're online.

ignore her advice, she used to im me but now she never does. she goes through men like candy. courtie = evil

[DaNutsInYoEye]

*hug*

msg me on msn or email me if you wanna talk. or i'll bug you sometime this weekend, make sure you're online.

ignore her advice, she used to im me but now she never does. she goes through men like candy. courtie = evil

Come on bigred. You should know better. The only candy Courtie wants is a and... well... you play $0.25/0.50 NL.

[bigred]

werd, haha

[Lukie]

hit me up on AIM sometime again.. I promise I won't be 12 tabling this time. In fact, I've played very little poker in the last few days.

[wufwugy]

life is hard.

you gotta be harder.

[bigred]

life is hard.

you gotta be harder.

that is one nice ass

for advice, i've jsut been wathincg this expression marionette rbeka dance thing.. you like dancing salsa, this is great!!! good music !!!!

[wufwugy]

that is one nice ass

i keep trying to lick it, but she keeps walking away.

[givememyleg]

sucks man...

[Sprayed]

Get constructive again. Put poker aside and get another job. It doesn't have to be great, just find something to pay the bills and occupy your time until you find a better job. Prioritize your life first. Work hard and play poker when you have time. If you get really good at poker then you can reevaluate your life then. If you need someone to talk to you can hit me up at any time. Whether you're serious or not, you should never consider taking your life over anything. Things are never that bad.

[a500lbgorilla]

Murder/Suicide my professor plzzz... i will teach you how to poker.

[Miffed22001]

im trying to find a job so that i dont have to rely on poker to play the bills each month, and so i can actually take time off to do waht i want etc.
But can i get a fucking job PLZ!!!!!!
Ive been for three shitty anybody-can-do-this jobs this week and last paying like £13000p/y (shit i know) and i just cant fucking get one.

Poker pays fine, but id like a nice grad job just to get started with and whatnot, but fuck can i not even get a dunce's job right now

[jyms]

Dude, If your girlfreind left after all this happened, Fuck her she was only in it for the benifits. If she left before, Get laid, your mojo depends on it. It'll get better, you know it will. this is variance. Dude your a poker playing salsa dancer with a smokin' amount of life experience. Use this time to get shit done. Hit some casino bonuses, Do some work around the house, get a massage ( the happy ending kind ) and play some poker. Spend a few bucks, have some Xmas turkey and in the new year, drop another hammer.

GL and hope it works out. FTR is here for ya.

[Reidak]

Downswings happen man, you know that. If your girl left you, then fuck that shit, what good is she. If you shares are dropping, you should short them.

You should pick yourself up, go to a salon or something, get a haircut and a shave, manicure and pedicure (no, its not gay - really.) You will feel good about yourself. Shop a bit, get some new clothes, call a couple buddies (everyone has at least one) hit a bar on the weekend, drink, talk, work game on milfs, your worries will melt away.

[salsa4ever]

Wow thanks for the love! I feel so... loved

Today I did some accounting for a side job of mine. Still don't want to do anything or go out. It's 40 degrees today (what's that in farenheit? 120 or something?) Basically smouldering hot

I'm thinking of spending some time organizing stuff for a special children's christmas party. I've donated to help fund it for a couple of years and they asked if I could help put some things together. So I'm thinking about that. I'm not sure because I feel so de-motivated and I don't want to stuff things up for everyone. I also have my weekly trek to the children's hospital to teach dancing. I really don't feel like it right now but I've made the commitment and I don't want to let the kids down. So I'll drag myself along.

At least it will keep me busy enough to not do anything I'll really regret. I was hoping to really get stuck into poker after exams (why the hell did my upswing need to be the 2 weeks before my exams), but now I might have to re-evalute my goals for the holidays.

Thanks for the support guys. I'll respond to each of your posts when I have a bit more life.

[donkbee]

salsa. trick is to keep your mind occupied as much as possible for the next little while until you're able to think about it without feeling like complete and utter shit. def surround yourself with ppl when you can.

*hug*

msg me on msn or email me if you wanna talk. or i'll bug you sometime this weekend, make sure you're online.

ignore her advice, she used to im me but now she never does. she goes through men like candy. courtie = evil

i knew you'd miss me like crazy

[boost]

this sounds very similar to my life in late september/early oct. It seemed like everything that could go wrong did. If possible, do what courtie said, stay away from the problems until you can approach them without getting all emotional. It took me too long to realize this.

I was pretty much over all the crap that went down by the time I made it out to boston to visit my freind, but that definately put it way behind me. If you can travel, or just get out, it helps A LOT.

[salsa4ever]

Get constructive again. Put poker aside and get another job. It doesn't have to be great, just find something to pay the bills and occupy your time until you find a better job. Prioritize your life first. Work hard and play poker when you have time. If you get really good at poker then you can reevaluate your life then. If you need someone to talk to you can hit me up at any time. Whether you're serious or not, you should never consider taking your life over anything. Things are never that bad.

Hey thanks for your concern! I don't think I'm close to killing myself at the moment. I'm low, but not *that* low

I've been thinking about this issue of priorities. I think I'm taking poker more and more seriously and playing higher and higher stakes is getting to me a bit. I still play for fun, and it's still fun to me... but I was really hoping to work about 20 hours a week (ATM I have about 6 hours of piano teaching and 4 hours of uni tutoring and I could bump it up a bit) and play poker for another 30 hours to make a tidy income. But I might need to re-evaluate this.

Of course, I've been through downswings before so it's not as if I can't handle them. I guess it's the combination of all the shit hitting the fan at the same time that's got me. I mean, usually when I'm on a downswing, my shares might be doing well or I might to so OT at my work or shag my sexy Brazlian girlfriend. I definitely need to put off any major life decisions until I'm thinking clearer

[salsa4ever]

salsa. trick is to keep your mind occupied as much as possible for the next little while until you're able to think about it without feeling like complete and utter shit. def surround yourself with ppl when you can.

*hug*

msg me on msn or email me if you wanna talk. or i'll bug you sometime this weekend, make sure you're online.

ignore her advice, she used to im me but now she never does. she goes through men like candy. courtie = evil

i knew you'd miss me like crazy

Yeah, I think I'll try to surround myself with stuff. I hope seeing the special children and the hospital kids will remind me how lucky I am. I mean I know it on an intellectual level, but I just don't feel that way.

And for the record, I don't mind being "candy" I've messed with some real maneaters and faced my share of Mrs. Robinsons so... BRING YOUR WORST... I can handle it!

[mrhappy333]

I hope your not serious, Suicide is forever. All this other shit is temporary. Theres plenty of other chicks out there, there will always be another poker game, and what goes up must come down,Thats the stock market.
TAKE A BREAK
go somewhere warm and sunny, it will recharge your batteries.

[LeFou]

Murder/Suicide my professor plzzz... i will teach you how to poker.

people get violent around the holidays, no?

[ensign_lee]

Glad to see you're feeling better. Didn't see this thread until today, so I'm sorry I couldn't give words of support earlier.

You're on the right track. Just make sure that you stay productive and that you see people. Once you get locked away in your house doing nothing, it gets significantly harder to pull yourself out of depression.

Just little productive things here and there, and soon you'll be doing bigger, more productive things and life will seem great again. It's amazing what a little sense of purpose will do for one's self esteem.

Hope you have more fun in the coming weeks and pull yourself out of this 'life variance' .