Thanks to everyone for their support.

I've come to realize that a central theme of my life for the past decade or so is trying to help people who won't help themselves and then having that take away from the few people who actually deserve that help. It's something that has gotten progressively worse over the past 4-5 years especially, but was still present before then. It's gotten to the point that I just really don't care about much at all right now and just sort of grind my way through each day and I'm not talking about poker. So I'm basically finished posting in this thread and maybe at all idk.