Tuesday, August 22, 2006
maybe i do want to be a french fry
Yesterday I suffered my biggest loss since I started keeping this blog. $21.39. That is actually good news and bad news. Knowing that I’ll be sharing my performance with you gentle readers helps to keep me somewhat in
check. The truth is, I went on micro-
tilt.
By the time I sat down to play I was tired and, at the same time, over-eager to play. I had been out of the house most of the day and when I did finally get home, I took some time to make dinner for the family. The thing that really put me in a poor frame of mind was that I reviewed the upcoming household bills. As a result, that night’s
session took on a new seriousness. My game had to
improve and it had to
improve now. If titans01 could make $125 a day, damnit, so could I.
I decided that I would review an article by Renton from the
Flop Turn River forum while I played. He claims to have made $12,000 playing small stakes
NLHE over a period of four months. In a series of articles he shares his winning strategy. So I made a hard copy of the piece, pulled out pencil and highlighter, and steeled myself for the influx of profound poker knowledge I was about to receive.
With all of the above swarming in my mind, I fired up Pacific Poker.
Back to the $10 NL tables. I had just over $30 in my account. Okay, this is do or die, I thought. I would read a sentence from the article and then try to put it into practice while I played.
This approach didn’t work
well. After just a quick scan of the techniques suggested by Renton, I got the impression that the biggest change in my game would be playing with greater
positional awareness. Fundamentally I would be playing more hands based on seat
position and table dynamics. That sounds reasonable. The problem with what I was doing was that I was splitting my attention between the article and the table. I hadn’t even gotten through the first page of the strategy and I was missing most of the
action on the table. So I was actually playing with less awareness rather than more.
So let’s think about this… More hands, more
aggression, less awareness equals…? Hmmm…. anyone, anyone? That’s right, increasingly shorter
stack. But I gotta get this bill money! One hundred twenty-five dollars in the next 30 minutes! Damn, beat again! Let me
reload. What? That guy who has only played 22% of the hands is raising from
under the gun, I’
m in
middle position, let me reraise him with KT
suited. Awww, f@#%, he has a
pair of queens!!
And it went on like that for a couple of hours.
I began to think, who am I kidding? What do you mean you want to be a serious poker player? Get over yourself. You are a joke. You better go
back to the
play money tables where you actually had a chance. Then I reminded myself that there is a right way to approach a goal, any goal, and there is a wrong way. And with the right guidance, the right attitude, the right approach, I can find success.
So, today, for starters, I’
m going to finish reading that article. The entire article. Away from the poker table. And I’
m gonna take some
notes and try to digest it.
And, yeah, maybe I do want to be a serious poker player!