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thanks robb. villain sat out and quit immediately after this hand (on his BU). i hate to admit that i derived pleasure purely from someone else's displeasure, but goddamn it felt good to know i had rattled his cage a little a bit. it was only $4 he lost, after all.

on a more serious note, i think there's a lesson to be learnt in there about ego and tilt and how they are related. i have a tendency (coming from back when i used to be able to handread a little bit) to make some pretty marginal and questionable plays when i feel i have a read or my bullshit detector is going off. on this occasion, this one worked, and so i felt good. i don't often get to call down 3-barrels with worst pair/worst kicker. so when i made this call and saw his hand, my ego went "woohoo", or something like that. HOWEVER, quite recently in this thread, i said:

i feel like i can see my where my edges are quite clearly when i'm sitting and playing. but then inevitably i make a mistake, large or minor, or even just make a non-standard play that i'm unsure about and which doesn't work out, then tilt like crazy, quit the session immediately, and don't play for a week. so it's hard to really tell.

and so the times i call there and he shows up with one of the 20ish combos of value hands he has in his range (which still comprise <70% of his range, making my call +EV regardless of which actual hand he has) i will often become incredibly results-oriented, second-guessing the shit out of myself, probably convince myself it was FPS, and then yeah i think we all know what happens then.

i had a point when i started writing this. hmmmm. i guess my point is there are two sides to the coin and we should try to detach our emotions from BOTH sides as best we can. i've always believed that positive and negative emotions from poker are actually part of the same process (ego). so celebrating less when you win/play well directly correlates with tilting less when you lose/play bad. i could well be wrong though. after all, i'm probably the most tilted guy around here since luckyslevin.